2023

 i always aim for better life years by years, knowing despite having various difficulties managing some bloody issues, from diploma to degree, heartbreaks to heartbreaks. 

imagine for thousand times, i always expect people to gave me their best, because i think i have given my utmost efforts ensuring people would always be there, not knowing i am not good enough myself.

this year, its always not good enough-

i did not get the job i aim, but staying at the current office is a messed bless, part time at LILIT is my escape of fun

i did not manage to receive first class degree, only second class upper 3.41 in Civil Engineering, Alhamdulillah, engineering was a roller coaster hell of ride :/ 

i did not manage to lose weight for my best friend's wedding upcoming 11/11, still stuck and having chubby cheek, 

checked my waist, its still 33 inch. 

turning 28 in 2024, still do not have my own car, 

marriage is a long way to go, not the first objective of life anymore, i do not find it is amusing stage anymore

i did not manage to help ibu ayah, like i expect it would be

maybe it was me who was too far,  who doubting Allah would be given me so much if only i believe in Him

it was me who rely on what is impossible. 

may ALLAH guide me to His way again & again.

فَإِنَّ مَعَ ٱلۡعُسۡرِ يُسۡرًا(5) إِنَّ مَعَ ٱلۡعُسۡرِ يُسۡرًا (6)