19 may

i think this time, 

lantakkan lah semua, for me to ignore this bukanlah satu benda yang mudah, the trust am trying to put throughout this relationship is ridiculous. 

takpayah lah fikir betul ke mak dia yang suruh pergi, mak dia yang suruh singgah, did they actually just contact and decided to meet, sampai bebila pun aku tk dapat jawapan betul and still got cheated on HAHA,jawapan ni pun dapat lepas dah sebulan raya, sebulan kena tipu :) pergi rayaaaa tapi tah keluar berdua, naik kereta sesama, sampai bila aku kena tadah nak rasa macam aku pulak orang ketiga- sial. 

the pathetic matter about being lied to is that, they look at us as we are the most stupid person ever, bagi alasan dan minta maaf, issuing why we do not believe them

do they ever  ask themselves, could they be faithful ?

is it that hard to do so ?

Im honestly so drain and not being myself to the point the very last night call it still end with "ikut awaklah ikut awak"

seems very tiring, do i ever think so ? of course

but this time let me save myself first, find the purpose of my life, lemme find my innerself yang ntah hilang ke mana, penat beri ruang dan peluang hanya untuk balik ke fasa pertama- cuba percaya

if he said, penat cuba pujuk cuba positif, 

so aku tak pernah cuba ke ?

kerja aku memang kena menerima semua baik, termasuk hal yang terburuk ni ?

i just want to look at you as mine again, i need my peace of mind. 

taknak too much, idw too much of trust

i just need people to love and respect me. 

itu je

is it too much ? :(