Unfeasible

 I may not be there from the start, but reminding how awful it is to be put in that kind of situation is not easy. Because i know managing a lot of people consist of tons of emotion and behavior 🙃

Kita ni kalau takboleh memudahkan jangan menyusahkan. 

Especially for someone like him, communicating was not the forte, not judging. Expressing what he feels which i know is a major unfeasible. To go deeper through his life was a battle to me, because at most of times when he is not okay, he will say otherwise so that things get better maybe. Listening is a skill, communicating is a skill. Hence will lead to a better leadership. To him, it will be terrible if people know how hard he’s trying to keep sane. To not looking as a weak person maybe his traits. Then, he keep it, searching fr some things to distract him. Idk what it is that actually, maybe i knew some of it that makes him happy. 

I haven’t know fully through his life yet, every inch of how he is at home. How life works for him there because I knew it was different. Even till today. If i could put a percent i would say i may only know 40 % ? Maybe. Sorry for not knowing how u keep up with everything all this time, sorry for not being chosen as the one you could spill everything cause Im a phase, because all i care was my feelings and forget your strenuous efforts.

To you, you are enough. You’ve done great. You are lovable, not because of your looks or what you have, you yourself is amazing to people. Stop wasting on unnecessary things. Learn to share, learn to express and communicate, not excessive but enough to less the burden. What we have today might be some answered prayers from others. Life is too short to keep it all good and please people.  Too short to be scared for the future. Keep walking and be the best version for yourself.